To the woman who was recently diagnosed with breast cancer.
The woman whose particular cancer, the doctor said, is the “bad kind.” Whatever the hell that means. Is there a “good kind” of breast cancer?
To the woman who had triple negative markers, which meant the chances of her cancer returning were high.
To the woman who had to look the doctors directly in their eyes, maintaining her composure, when they told her she needed a double mastectomy.
The same woman who has been undergoing chemo. Who has quarts of toxins coursing through her veins right now, killing her cells, both good cells and bad cells.
I’m talking about the woman who isn’t used to being The Patient. Who used to be so full of dutiful energy for helping others. Who would do anything for anyone. And did.
This heroic woman once made sacrifices for nearly everybody else. This woman once crawled out of bed each day and hit the floor running, living for the betterment of her people.
This same woman now has a
hard time getting off the sofa. She feels sickly, nauseated, and weak all the time.
I write this to the woman who used to occupy her waking hours doing busywork for others, who always put herself last. Who was happiest when she was functioning as a caregiver. Who was most comfortable serving someone else.
Whose purpose in life, arguably, was others. Who was a mainstay for her family. Who is, who has been, and who will forever be her clan’s touchstone.
The same woman who currently feels as though the universe has turned a blind eye toward her. Who feels—even though she might not admit this to herself—that God is indifferent to her. Who feels like God is being unfair. The same woman who might not even want to read His three-letter name right now.
That woman.
The woman who, over the span of her…
