DEAR SEAN:
I’m a big freak. I’m taller than everyone my age... And no, I’m not very good at sports. I’m not even good at school, and I have to go to special tutoring because it takes me longer than my friends to actually get it. I'm basically a big loser.
Sometimes I wish I could ride shotgun with you and your dog in your truck and just be a cool person for a day.
NINTH GRADE SUCKS
DEAR NINTH GRADE:
It’s early morning. I am sitting in my truck. I woke up before the sunrise on accident—sometimes that happens when you get older.
About my truck: I promise you, it’s NOT a “cool” person’s truck. And its owner isn't "cool," either.
My vehicle is a hog pen. Ellie Mae, the coonhound, has ruined it. Think: ripped upholstery, slobber on windshield, coffee stains, rotten apple cores, fruit flies.
Right now, it’s still dark outdoors. My first routine pit-stop is a convenience store. The place is empty this early.
Justine, at the counter, knows me. She knows I’m here to buy coffee and a newspaper.
Some days, I
buy scratch-off tickets, too. Today is one such day. I buy two $10,000,000 Florida Cash scratch-offs. I whisper the Serenity Prayer, and scratch.
I lose.
Justine laughs. “My daddy ALWAYS said lottery tickets are a tax on stupid people.”
Justine talks too much.
I ask about her kid. Her teenage son lives in North Alabama with his father. She never sees him. The kid is a cracker-jack third-baseman. She misses her boy.
I’m driving again. The sun is behind the trees. The sky is orange and purple. I’m heading to a spot on the Choctawhatchee Bay that I don’t think anyone knows exists.
But I’m wrong. People must know about it. Because when I arrive, I see an abandoned plastic chair in my headlights. There are empty beer cans scattered in the sand.
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