The 20-year-old girl is sleeping when we enter her hospital room. But her mom tells us to come in anyway.
I’m carrying my fiddle case. My friend Bobby is carrying his banjo.
The patient is sleeping on her side. We see her violent red ponytail spilling down her shoulders. There are cords and tubes exiting her body from all angles.
The girl’s kid sisters rush toward us to give quiet hugs. Then, Bobby and I hug her mother.
The young patient hears all this commotion. Hark. Fair Juliet awakes.
She opens her eyes. She sees me. She smiles. The 20-year-old girl sits up in bed and, without saying anything, opens her arms for me to embrace her.
There are green Band-Aids on her inner forearms, from where nurses have endlessly searched for new veins. And she has lost weight since I last saw her, which was only a few weeks ago. She is a tiny sparrow.
We embrace. I am careful not to squeeze too
hard. I can feel her ribcage beneath my arms.
“You’re here,” Morgan says in a half whisper.
“How’re you doing?” I say.
As soon as the words exit my mouth, I wish I could take them back. What a pig-ignorant question to ask to someone who just spent Christmas and New Year’s Eve in the ICU. How are you doing? What an bonehead.
Morgan smiles and answers, “I am doing great!”
I’ve never heard say things weren’t great. Not once.
She’s paralyzed on her left side. She uses a leg brace to walk. She is nearly blind. She lives on a form of life support called total parenteral nutrition (TPN), which is a feeding tube that supplies nutrition directly through her bloodstream, mounted in a backpack, which she wears all day, every day.
Currently, however, she has a blood infection. The infection…
